Acknowledging myself

For all my life I have been an introvert. I don’t know why but I was least interested in public interactions, my inclination was always towards Writing. It started all with maintaining a proper diary and entering the day to day happenings in it. I never acknowledged it to anyone except few of my friends knew. My family still have no clue about it. My introvert features grew over the growing years and my rough diary got converted into phone notes. One day I came across a blog thing and it instantly poked me to start my own blog. Somehow I started it around four years ago. My schedule was quite tight for a while that I posted few times and without any proper knowledge of following other blogs and getting followed back, I slowly got busier and quit blogging. And I almost forgot about it.
Last year COVID 19 hit every country and lockdown happened. It was during this period that I thought I should start journaling and all of the sudden the blog popped up. I regained my account over here and started a new. All the follower blogger came along and it raised my confidence and I tell you getting followed and liked really rejoices you. My self appreciation was always low perhaps and that’s the reason I ended up using alias. I have never wanted to be under spot light. But there is the thing that I wanted, that is I wanted my name to have an identity. Having an identity of my own has taken over to the thought of not being under spot light. Here I have come to post this that I have changed my alias to my real name. Though there is a little change that you would notice but to me it would be the real me. I have been appreciated well here on this blog and this has given me courage to come forward and accept my reality and get identified. I am so thankful to this blogging community for its immense love and encouragement. All the likes and comments here have raised my moral and given me insight that I am no different than others and my thoughts and this blog is quite a readable thing. I have been using Ursa as my name here and now I have changed it to my real name Urfa, which means air that brings good news/vibes. I hope my name blooms even more than my alias and it finds its identity worth having.