Anxiety, a silent destroyer with an impact huge enough to engulf you, a volcano that never erupts but never lets you rest either. It has power enormous but when someone tries to find it out, the underlying causes, they find none and the view seems surreal and calm. The one with the anxiety is never at peace, and the mind of person is out of control. The condition of the person is like that of the unstapled pin which was actually stapled but could not fit in and somehow bent, leaving the purpose of it’s not met. One end of the pin is stuck in that person’s head and other in heart. You try to untie one end, the other hurts miserably and bleeds. It seems it will never come out. One can not even straighten oneself because the ends will cause pain some how. Here straightening you can assume is trying to find midway, trying to letting things go or letting one end somehow loosen. You can also compare the one with anxiety struggling with the plant full of thorns. The more he tries to get rid of thorns, the more other twigs catch him. In struggle he gets wounded but thorns do not leave him. Ultimately somehow he may free himself, the effect of thorns and their grip remains intact to him for the long. He might find the relief in the idea of being free finally but the pricks remind him of the clutch for very long. The feel of freedom and the grip at the same time feels amazing but fear of being there again never leaves him. That feel of something, that gave pain to him and now he has got rid of it, is excellent, as if the grip has just been loosened. And he feels it every time he remembers the grip. Things on outside may seem like that sea surface which maintains the level but inside the emotions have played havoc. The magnitude of disaster is not recordable. You have every inch of your body telling you the depths of the pain but you are so helpless that you can not get that pin out and you can not let the pricks pain less.
Major cause of the anxiety is when one is obsessed with future and things get out of control. Trying everything as per your wish is fine but when obsession takes it, you lose your grip over your mind. And the other reason that builds your anxiety is when one does not express everything that is inside him, all the good and bad happenings need to be shared and properly dealed with. Suppression ultimately will build the insecurities and fear in you and one day these things take shape of anxiety with years of roots and strength. Such case of anxiety is very hard to be managed. Even a small matter of occurrence will erupt your high magnity anxiety later on. Suppressing the emotions and not having guts to express yourself is hazardous and the impact of such story is going to pay you in long run.
Your mind is in charge of your behaviour during your anxious period. Trying to get grip over it may help you but remember it’s a devil when mind is in charge, and to get grip of the devil takes more than expected. And not giving up on getting hold of your head is what makes you human and this is what makes you sure of the fact that God is by your side.